Journal Entry: Thu Nov 29, 2012, 2:35 AM
Regarding all the stuff that has come up in the last year about women in games, and tropes in videogames etc etc unequality and all that. I wrote this over at polycount but sharing it here.
I'm not sorry at all that I am in the pursuit of beauty in my work.
I'm not going to stop for anyone. I do what I do, because I enjoy it.
For years all I built was big space marines and ww2 soldiers, no one ever once told me back then I should 'diversify' and 'do something else' no one ever hassled me either it's just pretty much accepted. Pretty girls though?
Well you know what, I call BULLSHIT.
If you look at my work and all you see is a sex-doll, that's your business not mine.
I never intended any of my girls to be this way. None. If you ask me about any of them, instead of taking them at face value like so many people do, you would discover that they all have intricate back stories, and all mean a great deal to me personally due to what was going on at the time in life etc.
I've spent years honing specific lines and shapes just of female torsos and faces, in an attempt to try and refine my skill. I still feel nowhere remotely close to getting where I want to be, and I will continue to pursue it until this facet of the craft is no longer appealing to me. I certainly will not be stopping because people have misinterpreted my intentions, nor do I care if people cannot forgive me for falling into the stereotypical trap due to not being a good enough artist to hit my intended goals yet. You can rally against me and boo me off stage all you like.
I only share a fraction of my work online, and yet I have had people express their concerns at polycount and here at deviantart via PM about it, I've had people tell me I objectify women, I've had people tell me I'm a pervert who likes to jack off to my own art, I've had people call me disgusting, revolting, I've had people say that I should be banned from entering comps if I make females, the list really goes on and on. Working on RIFT I even had people tell me I should be shot.
The bottom line is, you won't catch me groping women in the workplace, you won't catch me making sexist remarks or lewd comments, nor will you find me discriminating against any person regardless of their sexual orientation, beliefs, gender or race when I've been in a position to hire, because tbh when it comes down to it, I JUST DON'T CARE if your gay, lesbian, transgender, male, female or what color your skin is, or what you believe in, whether you are in a minority or a majority. Your art, and your passion for your craft , is the thing that tells me all I need to know about you.
If making pretty girls in my spare time, to you, lumps me into the same category as these kinds of discriminatory men, then so be it. Im very proud to be doing what im doing, and again. NOONE will stop me.
Listening to: Silence
Playing: Assassins Creed 2
Drinking: Rice Milk